I am not entitled to being freely trusted. Trust is something to be received with honor, I cannot take it for granted without regret. It is either gained or lost by how I choose to conduct myself in relation to others.
I'll work hard to earn trust, just like people work to earn a raise. Trust is a relational commodity, a valuable and necessary resource for a harmonious and healthy relationship to thrive.
To a certain degree, the depth or amount of trust I've been given is an indication of how much time and effort I've put into earning it, in how trustworthy I've shown up to be. When given blindly or freely, I may have the propensity to take it for granted and not esteem it as highly as it's worth.
But when all is said and done, the level of trust I'm given does not define me as a person. Though it may say something about where I'm at in my character development, it does not speak to my value or worth as a person. That has been spoken for already by the cross, just as yours has been.
I will work hard to earn trust in my relationships, I'm not entitled to it. But I will live knowing that the amount of trust I receive doesn't bind me to my worth or value.
No matter how hard I try, I make a lousy God, and only He can be consistently 100% trustworthy. This frees me from placing all of my trust in anyone or anything else. And it frees me from placing that expectation upon my own shoulders.
Trust God to be God. He's really good at it and has tons of experience with that role.
While I value being found trustworthy, it is not my worth that's defined by that. Live life free and trust that He fits the job description for God, therefore I don't need to. It's far more important that I'm found trusting in His trustworthiness, one day at a time, instead of trying to trust in my own trustworthiness.
Period.
